mood: mellow icon: visual blur music:The Vanishment of Haruhi Suzumiya OST → A music related post as promised~ Again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mentioned . ENJOY! :)
NEWS: K-ON! gets a 2nd season!!! Comes out on April. [source]
I've been thinking so much lately and thoughts just keep on piling like when I'm alone. Somehow I'm sick of being a "no talent" or "no skill" in my opinion. Almost every Saturday our school hold seminars for nursing students from levels 2-4 (i'm in lvl. 2) and its mostly all about the campaigns of review centers in preparation for the board exams.
They give talks about test/ exam techniques (on how to get the correct answers), elimination techniques, career expansion, career opportunities, do board examination drills & simulations (usually), and of course services their review center is offering. Plus they never fail to give encouragement to the students to work harder and to make it on the board exams.
Well its just that lately is been bugging in my head. Out there I face reality and when I'm back at home I face my virtual reality life - my net life. Its fun & the internet never fails to suffice my need of entertainment & a dose of a stress reliever after a stressful day. But the thing that keeps me moping around is that I'm no good in either worlds. (Ah! that reminds me~ right now I'm the total opposite of Miley Cyrus' song, "Best of Both Worlds")
I'm not that good in class and I'm not that bad either but my parents think I can do much better if I could just focus. I lost my drawing skills around when I was 11 yrs. old when we had our 1st computer and I started to experiment on the photoshop when I was around 12/13. I have ignored a lot of "supposed to be" my potentials but letting go of "drawing" was my biggestregret of all.
I always thought that if ever I haven't let go of drawing, then atleast I can be a little good at it by now and do colorings in photoshop (that would be fun) because right now I still feel so intimidated in my new section where almost all the "tops" were resectioned.
--- AHHHH!!! random talk ---
Our speaker this morning made a HUGE impact on me & those friggin inspiration videos they let us watched almost made me to shed a tear. My goodness I know there are a lot of people who's really struggling right now just to get education, a job, to meet their dreams or simply just to get a LIFE. (*face palm* "what the hecky are you doing with your life Irene?! >.<""")
Nursing wasn't her 1st choice but realized it was the job for her and was saying "God has a plan why he let you took up nursing". Back then she was a working student; working at the Pizza Hut and taking her duties at the same time. She said proudly, "Its all about time mangament. Even the brushing of my hair back than was timed" and yet I was able to make it! (& here I am saying I'm busy and stuff! What the hecky, I have all the time in the world yet... (TToTT) )
I feel suffocated from the pressure I'm feeling from my classmates and friends in my section. Before I was able to do good (in class) & was able to put things in mind after a discussion (in my old sec.) but now I am so frustrated why I can't get our lessons a.s.a.p. in to my head!
My parents gave me everything that I needed but why am I not repaying them same effort?
I want to do better... I really really want to do better T^T
Is it too late to practice & draw again?
I can't even play the guitar & piano/ keyboard well even if its already there -.-.
I can't even do public speaking anymore when before I usually do the reports.
Why this & why that... *conscience attacks*
"Why fail yourself Irene?!" I seemed to be growing backwards....
I know something's wrong and I'm kinda aware where I went wrong yet why am I still not motivated to move?...
mood: sore icon: shore of the sky music:From Y to Y by [Clear] yes a stress reliever from Clear-sama's sweet & calm voice 8D
I just got home from our make-up class in Posology and since my big Waterloo is mathematics, I therefore conclude that Posology can KILL - figuratively & literally! Escaping from mathematical equations was partly my intention of taking the nursing course plus, I love Biology.
Gah! But I was so wrong. I came to realize that nursing actually is a "combination of different talents/skills" - (woah~ as if)... but really! You need to be good at communication, in math, in practical application/ skills, you should be an investigator, researcher and so forth. Then I said to myself, "Diyos ko ano ba tong pinasok ko!" (My goodness what have I entered/commited myself into!) X.x
And I think it's too late for me to back out now... nonetheless I'm still waiting for the time when I will finally "fall-in love" with the coarse. Nursing's not that bad... its just that it takes a whole lot of effort & courage to serve & save one's life.
I'm having a free evening today :D No projects & stuffs (i think)... So I was planning of joining fanlistings made by a few friends like: Kibumie, Kula & Ametori. Plus replying to my pending messages, comments (So sorry for my outstansing late replies again! T^T), to watch animes I missed to watch this week (Durarara!! & Kimi ni Todoke) and finally to have a good Saturday night with my family watching Sandra Bullock - "The Blind Side."
Belated HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to 2 people close to my heart: Rizza & Shienel ♥ (Jan. 22)
This week was full of obstacles for me that when I go look into my twitter and read my tweets on those days, I remember how problematic I was. Monday to Tuesday was my 1st duty on our main hospital and we were under by a Spartan sort of slave driver clinical instructor. My knees hurt oh so much from I don't know... maybe because of the prolonged standing & walking or maybe perhaps of the intense pressure I felt on those 1st 2 days. ( i always go home sulking -.-)
Wednesday was our overnight retreat but instead of concentrating on our our renewal, almost all of us wasn't paying much attention because we will have an exam the next day. (wtfudge...) Good thing while we were in the middle of our retreat our classmate announced that the exam was moved on Friday but still we had a class at Thursday afternoon till 7 pm D: (sleeping time: 12am, waking time: 5am)
Thursday in the afternoon Ate Weng told me that the debut I was invited to attend wasn't on Sunday but was on Friday 7pm. I panicked so hard because I still haven't yet a dress asked on the occasion and because our exam would end at 7pm on Friday. My period came and had an intense dysmenorrhea but still forced myself to go school.
Then came Friday, pretest on Skills lab, reporting on Nutrition & exam on Pharmacology. I had to let go of my friend's debut for the exam and there I was so looking forward to that rare occassion where I was literally invited. Somehow I kinda felt how it was to be heart broken - I didn't felt any hunger because of disappointment... I ate late in the evening that day.
-- END // frenetic week --
Well I almost forgot of how stressful I was because I again drowned myself to stress relievers (youtube + tinier me). Now my attention is fully deviated on Nico Nico singers & vocaloids. I often lurk around youtube in search of good music to kill stress.
I fell head over heels to these people's voices:
1st→ Halyosy 『KONBINI』 2nd→ Clear 『Fire Flower』 3rd→ Nam 『SPICE!』 ◘ sub favs: Anima, That, Ask, Amu, Tourai, ◘ likes: Usa, Yamai and maybe Chouchou :3
Wish I could enumerate all of the PV(s) but right now I'm out of time. I might make a post about them soon but at the moment feel free to look into my → Favorites list on Youtube if you wish ♥ :) Tonight's gonna be another busy night!
mood: hungry icon: siamois music:『KONBINI 』by Halyosy // another version is in my "Media" section. → a very funny yet sweet short video clip. I've been listening to it for weeks! Belated Happy New Year! 1/1/10 - related post below [1] Today So classes started today again~ The day ended up smoothly for me and i wasn't that stressed anymore unlike before. I guess though Christmas vacation was short, it really helped me get away from almost 70% of my stress factors (school) :D
[2] Vocaloid Goodies - again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mention. Enjoy!
A memory to wear is now a memento to give, To remind us of the reason why we all want to live, To cherish the friends we meet throughout our own life, Those who stay with us through happiness and both strife, A memento to give is now a memory to wear, A tribute to those for which we really do care.
- John Choi
& a friend of mine made this continuation:
And thus a tribute I give, to those who care. With endless memories we've come to share. And may we leave this humble good year at a happy end, and begin this new year with a new trend. Let's all live these years like every morning was the first day we met, every afternoon was the first time we became best friends, and every night was the last night we'd spend together.
Ok to make things short, at this very moment I am at Manila typing on my father's laptop X.x (haha! i finally had my my fingers on it xD) Yesterday papa woke us up early in the morning, telling me & my sister to pack up our things because for Manila.
.SILVER // drops.
This is my small corner in the internet where I convey my precious thoughts, feelings, melancholy, euphoria(s) and failures. This is my means of expressing myself & my day to day adventures to the world as my life unfolds.
Blog Started: June 20, 2008 Status: Complete
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Short intro:Hello! Irene (often known as Chihaya in the net) speaking here <3.
I'm eighteen years old usually quiet and aloof and loves staying at home. My interests usually vary from time to time and if I'm interested in something, I usually put all my attention into it neglecting other things that I'm supposed to be doing. Procrastinating is my best friend as much as I hate it. My goals at the moment includes graduating with a decent grade, enjoying life and having fun.
Name: Irene Virtual Name: Chihaya, Fenris, Nxia, Mizuna Birthdate: October 25, 1991 Ethnicity: Filipino Home Town: Cebu City Country: Philippines Zodiac: Scorpio Chinese Zodiac: Sheep MBTI Test: INFP - The Dreamer Occupation: Student Fav. Colors: red, orange, gold, blue Music Taste: j-pop, instrumental, classical Favorite Manga:Zettai Kareshi, Kou Kou Debut & Parfait TicLoves: my Family, Animes, manga(s), graphics, animals, gadgets Hobbies: eating, manga reading, watching anime series & movies, gamming, playing sports, graphics designing Browser: Mozilla Firefox
Musics that best suit my melody/ personality:
Song:Arekara by Shimokawa Mikuni on Sore Ga, Ai deshou Piano:Euforia by Kubota Mina on ARIA ~ Piano Collection ~ Stiagone
mood: mellow icon: visual blur music:The Vanishment of Haruhi Suzumiya OST → A music related post as promised~ Again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mentioned . ENJOY! :)
NEWS: K-ON! gets a 2nd season!!! Comes out on April. [source]
I've been thinking so much lately and thoughts just keep on piling like when I'm alone. Somehow I'm sick of being a "no talent" or "no skill" in my opinion. Almost every Saturday our school hold seminars for nursing students from levels 2-4 (i'm in lvl. 2) and its mostly all about the campaigns of review centers in preparation for the board exams.
They give talks about test/ exam techniques (on how to get the correct answers), elimination techniques, career expansion, career opportunities, do board examination drills & simulations (usually), and of course services their review center is offering. Plus they never fail to give encouragement to the students to work harder and to make it on the board exams.
Well its just that lately is been bugging in my head. Out there I face reality and when I'm back at home I face my virtual reality life - my net life. Its fun & the internet never fails to suffice my need of entertainment & a dose of a stress reliever after a stressful day. But the thing that keeps me moping around is that I'm no good in either worlds. (Ah! that reminds me~ right now I'm the total opposite of Miley Cyrus' song, "Best of Both Worlds")
I'm not that good in class and I'm not that bad either but my parents think I can do much better if I could just focus. I lost my drawing skills around when I was 11 yrs. old when we had our 1st computer and I started to experiment on the photoshop when I was around 12/13. I have ignored a lot of "supposed to be" my potentials but letting go of "drawing" was my biggestregret of all.
I always thought that if ever I haven't let go of drawing, then atleast I can be a little good at it by now and do colorings in photoshop (that would be fun) because right now I still feel so intimidated in my new section where almost all the "tops" were resectioned.
--- AHHHH!!! random talk ---
Our speaker this morning made a HUGE impact on me & those friggin inspiration videos they let us watched almost made me to shed a tear. My goodness I know there are a lot of people who's really struggling right now just to get education, a job, to meet their dreams or simply just to get a LIFE. (*face palm* "what the hecky are you doing with your life Irene?! >.<""")
Nursing wasn't her 1st choice but realized it was the job for her and was saying "God has a plan why he let you took up nursing". Back then she was a working student; working at the Pizza Hut and taking her duties at the same time. She said proudly, "Its all about time mangament. Even the brushing of my hair back than was timed" and yet I was able to make it! (& here I am saying I'm busy and stuff! What the hecky, I have all the time in the world yet... (TToTT) )
I feel suffocated from the pressure I'm feeling from my classmates and friends in my section. Before I was able to do good (in class) & was able to put things in mind after a discussion (in my old sec.) but now I am so frustrated why I can't get our lessons a.s.a.p. in to my head!
My parents gave me everything that I needed but why am I not repaying them same effort?
I want to do better... I really really want to do better T^T
Is it too late to practice & draw again?
I can't even play the guitar & piano/ keyboard well even if its already there -.-.
I can't even do public speaking anymore when before I usually do the reports.
Why this & why that... *conscience attacks*
"Why fail yourself Irene?!" I seemed to be growing backwards....
I know something's wrong and I'm kinda aware where I went wrong yet why am I still not motivated to move?...
mood: sore icon: shore of the sky music:From Y to Y by [Clear] yes a stress reliever from Clear-sama's sweet & calm voice 8D
I just got home from our make-up class in Posology and since my big Waterloo is mathematics, I therefore conclude that Posology can KILL - figuratively & literally! Escaping from mathematical equations was partly my intention of taking the nursing course plus, I love Biology.
Gah! But I was so wrong. I came to realize that nursing actually is a "combination of different talents/skills" - (woah~ as if)... but really! You need to be good at communication, in math, in practical application/ skills, you should be an investigator, researcher and so forth. Then I said to myself, "Diyos ko ano ba tong pinasok ko!" (My goodness what have I entered/commited myself into!) X.x
And I think it's too late for me to back out now... nonetheless I'm still waiting for the time when I will finally "fall-in love" with the coarse. Nursing's not that bad... its just that it takes a whole lot of effort & courage to serve & save one's life.
I'm having a free evening today :D No projects & stuffs (i think)... So I was planning of joining fanlistings made by a few friends like: Kibumie, Kula & Ametori. Plus replying to my pending messages, comments (So sorry for my outstansing late replies again! T^T), to watch animes I missed to watch this week (Durarara!! & Kimi ni Todoke) and finally to have a good Saturday night with my family watching Sandra Bullock - "The Blind Side."
Belated HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to 2 people close to my heart: Rizza & Shienel ♥ (Jan. 22)
This week was full of obstacles for me that when I go look into my twitter and read my tweets on those days, I remember how problematic I was. Monday to Tuesday was my 1st duty on our main hospital and we were under by a Spartan sort of slave driver clinical instructor. My knees hurt oh so much from I don't know... maybe because of the prolonged standing & walking or maybe perhaps of the intense pressure I felt on those 1st 2 days. ( i always go home sulking -.-)
Wednesday was our overnight retreat but instead of concentrating on our our renewal, almost all of us wasn't paying much attention because we will have an exam the next day. (wtfudge...) Good thing while we were in the middle of our retreat our classmate announced that the exam was moved on Friday but still we had a class at Thursday afternoon till 7 pm D: (sleeping time: 12am, waking time: 5am)
Thursday in the afternoon Ate Weng told me that the debut I was invited to attend wasn't on Sunday but was on Friday 7pm. I panicked so hard because I still haven't yet a dress asked on the occasion and because our exam would end at 7pm on Friday. My period came and had an intense dysmenorrhea but still forced myself to go school.
Then came Friday, pretest on Skills lab, reporting on Nutrition & exam on Pharmacology. I had to let go of my friend's debut for the exam and there I was so looking forward to that rare occassion where I was literally invited. Somehow I kinda felt how it was to be heart broken - I didn't felt any hunger because of disappointment... I ate late in the evening that day.
-- END // frenetic week --
Well I almost forgot of how stressful I was because I again drowned myself to stress relievers (youtube + tinier me). Now my attention is fully deviated on Nico Nico singers & vocaloids. I often lurk around youtube in search of good music to kill stress.
I fell head over heels to these people's voices:
1st→ Halyosy 『KONBINI』 2nd→ Clear 『Fire Flower』 3rd→ Nam 『SPICE!』 ◘ sub favs: Anima, That, Ask, Amu, Tourai, ◘ likes: Usa, Yamai and maybe Chouchou :3
Wish I could enumerate all of the PV(s) but right now I'm out of time. I might make a post about them soon but at the moment feel free to look into my → Favorites list on Youtube if you wish ♥ :) Tonight's gonna be another busy night!
mood: hungry icon: siamois music:『KONBINI 』by Halyosy // another version is in my "Media" section. → a very funny yet sweet short video clip. I've been listening to it for weeks! Belated Happy New Year! 1/1/10 - related post below [1] Today So classes started today again~ The day ended up smoothly for me and i wasn't that stressed anymore unlike before. I guess though Christmas vacation was short, it really helped me get away from almost 70% of my stress factors (school) :D
[2] Vocaloid Goodies - again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mention. Enjoy!
A memory to wear is now a memento to give, To remind us of the reason why we all want to live, To cherish the friends we meet throughout our own life, Those who stay with us through happiness and both strife, A memento to give is now a memory to wear, A tribute to those for which we really do care.
- John Choi
& a friend of mine made this continuation:
And thus a tribute I give, to those who care. With endless memories we've come to share. And may we leave this humble good year at a happy end, and begin this new year with a new trend. Let's all live these years like every morning was the first day we met, every afternoon was the first time we became best friends, and every night was the last night we'd spend together.
Ok to make things short, at this very moment I am at Manila typing on my father's laptop X.x (haha! i finally had my my fingers on it xD) Yesterday papa woke us up early in the morning, telling me & my sister to pack up our things because for Manila.
1:40 PM || Back to top, baby.
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