discontent

icon: jaizea

music: Poppies in Morning

Hmm not much to say this week. I guess that's a good thing? ꉂ(´∀｀) at least nothing that's incredibly pressing that needed to be aired out or to have my thoughts organized about. We'll instead have some notes and all-over the place thread-of-thought today:

[1] I am so happy joining cliques under Aquarel.nu by Aelyn and Cerine. I've always admired their designs and writing. They were also one of the reasons I've gone back to blogging and faced the challenge of coding again. Their wonderful web designs reminded me so much of the good old early 2000's div styling.

Believe it or not, I used to do artworks via Photoshop. Tiny remnants of them survived in my earlier posts in this blog (which I was so pleasantly surprised about). Seeing them still makes my heart ache from nostalgia and fondness. Graphics designing used to be a big hobby and was (and still is!) a big source of my motivation generally speaking; getting through my studies back in high school and uni years just so I can start designing and use the computer again.

Having to learn and design beautiful artworks back then was very fulfilling! Now that I think about it, losing all my resources such as: textures, brushes, fonts, tutorials etc., including Photoshop CS3 the program itself is a big regret of mine. Not that it was on purpose, I moved out of PH to find a better life and opportunity and with it came a (a lot of) cost. I could only bring a small notebook laptop and it cannot hold everything I hold dear for graphics designing. The icons and mood themes I'm using today are a small part of the collection.  

Getting back into it, now that things have settled down did cross my mind but... a lot of things have changed. It's a pain getting Photoshop; resources that used to be readily available are no longer accessible; though I agree that artists/ webmasters responsible for making them should get something (particularly in monetary form) in return apart from credit and fame. I'm very sad about the state of celetial-star.net. It used to be a huge source of inspiration. < Oops, I'm getting distracted >  Though I'm well aware that these are only excuses. That if I want to get back into it badly enough, there will be ways.

[2] Got my hair chopped last Wednesday, above the shoulder length. This is only the 3rd time I got it this short and it's due to it being such a hassle to dry during this winter season. I like it so far and Neh has been lovin it too.

[3] This week we've been enjoying "OPM 2025–2026 Late Night Playlist Mix"

[4] Contemplating whether to avail of a digital artbook by Natalia Zaitseva. She is an illustrator and a mum. Been enjoying her artworks and/ or comics, also her being a mum around my age resonates with me since I have a lot of friends who are also fellow toddler moms. It is both a joy and a struggle which is why I'm thinking of buying the artbook (to be at least of tiny help). Please consider checking her out too! 

 

That's it for now! I've had enough distractions while writing this post and my juice has rant out (╥ ᴗ ╥)